…I had never met and married the wonderful Dadd-oo? Become the mother to two energetic pugs. And had my heart forever changed by the birth of my son?

For some reason, as we were driving home from grocery shopping this week, after 2 different stores and multiple times of buckling and unbuckling car seats, this question popped into my head. I know that this is something that every mother, no matter what stage of motherhood they are in, has pondered.

What would I be doing right now…

…if my life had taken a different direction. If I had never risked ending a friendship, just to find true love. If I had chosen my career over getting married. If I had decided to keep working rather than stay at home. 

I pondered over this as we traveled home, over a bridge, through the busy streets. And I could only come up with one answer. I don’t know.

I can’t think of a single thing that I would rather be doing. I don’t see myself as a partner in a company. At one time I did, but I know that would not have fulfilled me the way being a SAHM does. I don’t see myself traveling the world. I get way too air sick for that. I don’t see myself moving far away, to a new and exciting place. I value and cherish my family too much.

That leaves me with just one answer.

I’m doing exactly what I should be. I’m raising my family. I’m putting my kids first. I can’t imagine my life any other way. And that, my friends, is a great feeling. To know that I’m so fulfilled by the path my life has taken that I don’t need anything else (except maybe a few hours to myself now and again). That’s what everyone is striving for, isn’t it? To know that you are doing what you love, and that if you had to do it all over again, you would.

Of course there are days when I’m exhausted beyond imagination. When the house looks like it’s exploded from the inside out. When I’m too tired, physically, mentally, spiritually to even hold a conversation with Dad-oo. But at the end of the day, I know that I’m following the right path for my life. And nothing could make me happier.

Allison Butt blogs at Alli 'n Son.